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A feeling
Unsure of how to move forward, sitting here in my car, having spent time in a public park trying to remember what i am supposed to feel again, but you know, that memroy eludes me. I think i semi-understand that im not happy with the course of my life again. That i should change again, but im so tired of that now, always changing, never finding that peace of mind and soul that you hear about all the time. Sure sure you can put on a braveface, joke about the misfortunes of others, but in the end you still look in the mirror and see the one everyone else jokes about. Its odd though, trying to stay emotionally cold and failing at it.
Self protection isnt what it once used to be.
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A need to bleed
Scraping the skin on my wrists, waiting….
Scraping the skin on my arms, waiting….
Scraping the skin on my neck, waiting….
but no blood flows.
Cutting the skin on my face, waiting….
Cutting the skin on my torso, waiting….
Cutting the skin on my legs, waiting….
but no blood flows
Carefully, opening my chest, between my ribs, waiting….
Carefully, piercing my heart with a knife, waiting….
but no blood flows
because, I thought you were joking
when you said you’d take it all.
Soooo Cold…….
*bbuuuurrrrrrrr* (shivers and tries to keep warm)…..
ice…
and in the end
there was only two,
and after the two,
there was but one,
and upon the passing of the one
two came out again
then a bit more two
some one
more one
randomly two
….
being sick is weird.
Intelligent understatement and fish
Sorry I haven’t been blogging much of late, been fairly busy with life and stillness.
Been working on a number of images for submission to art sites for sale, so that’s
been taking a fair amount of my time, that, and learning how to use horrible programs
like Photoshop 🙂
Anyway, as always, Bounce On.
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