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The world around me is insane

 

The world around me is insane.

And I am the only here that is level headed.

 

That is actually not quite accurate.

I am insane also.

But I choose to think like that because that allows me to remain level headed and survive in this insane world, where level headedness is looked down upon and the truly kind hearted are stabbed by eyes of gloom and souls of pure tar.

In amongst this all, I still survive, all be it as a slim shimmer of a child’s scream in the darkness of my cave, deep, deep inside my level headed insanity.

A feeling

Unsure of how to move forward, sitting here in my car, having spent time in a public park trying to remember what i am supposed to feel again, but you know, that memroy eludes me.  I think i semi-understand that im not happy with the course of my life again. That i should change again, but im so tired of that now, always changing, never finding that peace of mind and soul that you hear about all the time.  Sure sure you can put on a braveface, joke about the misfortunes of others, but in the end you still look in the mirror and see the one everyone else jokes about. Its odd though, trying to stay emotionally cold and failing at it.

Self protection isnt what it once used to be.

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